「LAN-MU, LAN-MU。」
我跟香菇韜每每聽到巧晴的「LAN-MU」就相視而笑，因為我們知道巧晴現在心中的第一號偶像是代父從軍的木蘭(MULAN)。姑且不論為何MULAN會變成LANMU，巧晴崇拜木蘭的程度可以說是跌破我們的眼鏡。除了早晚三稱木蘭名號之外，只要拿到長形的東西，例如長尺，巧晴就會雙手煞有介事地翻轉起尺來，並吆喝個兩聲，一副準備好殺敵的樣子。
若說巧晴有扮演正義者角色的天賦，就得感謝香菇韜在巧晴為出生前所施行的胎教。巧晴在羊水裡沒”聽”過幾部電影，Kill Bil Volume 2 還有北野武的座頭市，想必得到巧晴不少共鳴。因為爸爸強調這兩部片都是暴力美學的經典，並沒有負面的胎教影響，所以說服了巧晴的媽媽帶著巧晴重複看了幾遍DVD。
這胎教或許頗為成功，讓巧晴很快速地就抓到了MULAN卡通的重點：木蘭是英雄，我也要學武功像她一樣，打壞人。所以當壞蛋在MULAN中出現時，巧晴就會發出「ㄡㄡ」的聲音，表示這下麻煩大了。接下來她就會指著電視說LANMU，LANMU，呼喊木蘭出來打壞蛋。我在一旁看了真是一則以喜、一則以憂。喜的是，哇，這個小鬼真不簡單，學的真快；憂的是，這樣會不會太暴力？不過在這充滿危險的社會，會打壞人還是比較好一點。
不過伸張正義的感覺似乎真的很吸引小孩。我在幼稚園教書的時候，小朋友最喜歡音樂老師帶來的歌曲Kung Fu Kick. 平時上音樂課老師很難讓小朋友聽話，不過Kung Fu Kick 從來不讓老師失望。只要唱起Kung Fu Kick，小朋友聲音既宏亮又整齊，再加上可以踢個幾腳，打個幾拳，Kung fu Kick 老是贏得滿堂彩。
或許小孩的心裡都住著一個英雄吧。巧晴現在的英雄是木蘭，以後呢，大概也可以代父完成任務了。嗯…好像聽到香菇韜在說：『妳想的美喔。我看我們先是被她都打倒才是。』
May 8th, 2006
Blogging is a pure interest.
It is good to do something without a real financial or social purpose. I sometimes think it is good to be a talented writer or artist. Then what you are interested in doing can also be your career. When I was in my youth, I spent lots of time playing, traveling, and enjoying whatever my interests can bring me. I never calculated the percentage of time spent on creating financial or social value for the future. What I wanted was very simple, being happy and staying happy.
Was it kind of irresponsible and childish? Maybe not. What I understand now is that being in charge of our own happiness is a person’s very first and important life responsibility. The content of happiness is the same throughout the lifetime. The difference is that how we take the life responsibility seriously and at the same time stay happy and contend about what we can do and what we have. It is challenging but we all have to face it.
I am not jealous for anyone’s wealth but I can be so jealous if someone told me “I am so happy and this is what I want.” I can suddenly become a little person standing in others’ “happy shadow”. It is restless to go after others’ wealth and happiness. It is quite hard to let go many things such as being able to travel as much as I can, have lots of money to raise my social value, and live in a place close to town as well as to a mountain. But, I have to let the obsession go somewhere and kiss them goodbye. It is just very true that I am not a work-for-money type of person. Once I start to work-for-money, I can hate myself so much.
So, I am back here doing something without true purpose but making myself contend. “Roses are red, Violets are blue, Sugar is sweet. And so are you.” See you later, my friends.
May 5th, 2006